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Name: Chris
Country: United States
State: Oklahoma
Metro: Stillwater
Birthday: 2/22/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: God, hanging out with my roommates, playing guitar, chiropractic medicine, any kind of sport that doesn't involve girls playing, Poker, Spider-Man, every OSU sport, beating OU in every one of their sports, and living two houses down from my Organic Chemistry Lab professor
Expertise: Being a complete idiot, the menu at El Chico, and how to drive a Vibe
Occupation: Student
Industry: Retail
Message: message me
AIM:  chrisprockosu
MSN: thatchrisdude@hotmail.com
Member Since:
4/30/2004
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| Well, this will be my last Xanga post for forever...I moved to MySpace, so check that out...I growed up and had to move over there.....I didn't write this, but it sums up what I'm feeling....
"In many ways the past two months have felt like years; and in other ways the past two months have felt like an intense - surreal dream. Either way, time has passed, and we find ourselves two weeks back into the United States feeling much like the kids who left Narnia through the wardrobe. But it's almost more than that: It's Indiana Jones returning from the crusade, Harry Potter returning to Privet drive after his adventures at Hogwarts, and perhaps most of all like Frodo Baggins and his three cronies in the end of the 3rd film when they go into the tavern for a cold brew, look around, and realize they love their home, and yet, their lives will never be the same. So we like movies, so what? We could've thought of at least 10 more, but we used restraint.
As much as we all enjoy being home, there's a part in all of us that fears the inevitable question, "How was Africa?" With this question comes some difficulty, because just like any life altering experience, it can never be put into words. Where do we begin? No story, e-mail, photo or video clip will do it justice. With that stated, we are going to attempt to put it into words anyway, because we know you want to know, and maybe this e-mail will give us all a head start on the unavoidable question.
Africa? How was Africa? Africa was amazing. Africa is amazing. Africa is a million and one things. It is a land of contradictions, and a land of great controversy. Africa is more diverse than any other place on the planet. It has experienced the greatest combination of foreign thievery and foreign goodwill. It is plagued with individuals who are hurting, dirty, and dying. It is plagued with rich leaders. It is strong, joyful and resilient. Africa is filled to the brim with song, dance and soccer. It feels your lungs with life with every burnt breath. It feels your eyes with tears with every sight. The sun blazes, the rain pours. It has more sky than your eyes could possibly take in. Africa is humbling. Africa rips the heart out of your chest and buries it in the rich red soil, knowing that you will someday return, to see the growth. And there is no doubt it will grow. Africa is dangerous, welcoming, and addictive. It is prosperous. It is poor. It is all too overwhelming. Africa knows the value of friendship. Time is not money in Africa. And money goes a long way. Africa holds a mirror up to your soul - letting you see all your selfish desires, and not letting go, until you're completely broken." | | |
| This post is coming from an empty bedroom in the house that will cease to be mine in about two days.....Moving out was REALLY weird...I found a lot of things I didn't know I still had, read some letters that brought back memories, looked at some pictures that flooded my mind with the stories behind them, found some items that brought back laughter and even a misty eye or three......now it's packed up, moved away, and awaiting Dallas...
It's been an awesome four years in Stillwater, and the weird thing is thinking about all the things that have happened while I've been here....I've made lifelong friends, made some good enemies, hopefully impacted someone's life, loved some, trusted tons, learned things I never would have if I didn't go to OSU, joined Dessert Club, went to three different continents, and while there found out what loving and caring actually are, worked at a restaurant, a church, a clothing retailer, and a furniture store, had three majors, filled my top drawer with weird gifts, lived with 8 amazing people while here, had girlfriends and dates that have helped point me to what my wife will be like, worshipped in the Facebook cult, solved the problems of the world on two different porches, met a witch doctor, gotten a hundred bucks taken from my friend that I'm still bitter about, cried some (gay huh), laughed so hard I thought I was going to puke and die, needed friends, broke two fingers, an ankle, and got an concussion, taught some amazing freshmen that taught me more than I taught them, had two wives that will make amazing real wives one day, spent three hours total studying in the library, spent four years wishing I would spend more time studying in the library, discovered Eischens, dreamed about the future, got pissed at the present, regretted the past, and most importantly, became the Chris Prock that types this......Now I take up my hat to hang it in Dallas for the next three years of my life...I have NO clue how that will go, but I thank you all for what you've done for me these past four years....There have been times that I wanted to kill various people, but even then I realized I couldn't live without them....visits to my house down there BETTER happen from all of you because I have no clue how often I'll be able to come up here....I leave in TEN days for AFRICA, so I won't update for a long while....if I decide to come back to Xanga, I'll let you know how I am....whatever happens, thank you....that's all I can say...have a great life if I never see you again, and know that I pray for you all....opening new chapters are scary and freaky, and that's what's about to happen...I'm nervous about the transition, so PRAY for me....I had almost forgotten what panic attacks felt like....
"Odd how much it hurts when a friends moves away-- and leaves behind only silence."
I know I'm leaving ya'll behind, but silence will still be there where all of you used to be....You stay classy Stillwater....
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| I slept for four hours last night....plans for Africa storming through my mind and not allowing me to sleep....thoughts of moving to Dallas harassing me constantly, refusing to let me dream.....thoughts about life in general whirling around and denying any eyelid closure....EVERYTHING is hitting me right now and it's crazy.....I only have a couple of weeks left here with people that I love.....I'm trying to spend as much time as possible with them, but our schedules conflict, so it ruins everything......I don't know if this post really has any meaning other than to empty my mind out for a second.....
Oh yeah, I think this might be one of my last Xanga posts.....It's been good in the long run, but it just really isn't that fun anymore.......who knows tho...I hate good-byes, but if this is it, I guess this is good-bye....I'll be seeing you
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| **EDIT** To the girl(s) who killed the swan last week.....you should be hung in OSU's Town Square....I hate you for what you did to the swan...it was an instrumental part of Theta Pond...now I have to walk by it and wonder about what might have been....Stupid girls...Here is the story....Word from my credible source says it was a couple of girls....I will find out....
Quick random update so I won't get griped at anymore....This last week was kind of lame, but this one is gonna be pretty sweet....Here's a few reasons why:
1.) THREE straight nights of softball starting tonight at 8.....We're ranked SECOND in Co-Rec, and our guys team is ranked NUMBER ONE.....yeah, you should come watch us...
2.) Invisible Children is bringing their film to Stillwater for four nights to show people what's going on in Africa...If you've never heard about it before, you should click on the link and read about it...CRAZY STUFF....go see the movie too....check out the schedule section for times and locations when they're gonna be here...or just ask me
3.) Trip to Norman this Thursday evening for some hanging out and Vespers action...That's the OU Impact....just FYI
4.) The last test in Physiology before the Final...I don't really see that as a bright point, but the fact that it's the LAST one makes it alright...
5.) More hours at the Chico means I get to make some more money before the summertime. is bring
6.) Every single day that passes puts me one day closer at being in a place my heart won't let me forget.....May 23rd needs to hurry and get here....
7.) I get to hang out with some people I haven't gotten to hang out with in a LONG time....
8.) New episodes of House and The OC always prove to make the week good...
That's really all I've got.....lame I know, but thought I'd give the ole update and outlook for the week....you guys and gals have a good week and come see me sometime
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| - Cannonball
After my long disappearance from the world of Xanga, I'm back.....I promise not to be rambling or anything like that....from my last post, that proves to only get like 3 comments.....that's ok tho...
Spring Break was AMAZING....I met a man named Howard Hendricks, and if you've never heard of him, you're missing out....I even was presented with the chance at meeting with him a couple of times when I move to Dallas, so that will be awesome...we're definitely in the countdown until Dallas, so that's pumping me up more and more....
Africa is also in the countdown.....TWO months away from you all....really no way at all to talk to any of you....that's almost unbearable, but I'll probably survive....God will be there to talk to, so that's good...plus two of my really good friends will be there....START PRAYING!
On a lighter note, and pulling away from looking TOO far ahead, I have a date on Saturday....yeah, you heard me right...A DATE....I haven't really pursued anything with anyone for a little while because of some things that needed to be straightened out in my life, but I'm pretty sure I got those figured out, so it would be asinine of me not to go for stuff now.....PLUS, the gal is a REALLY great gal....The only bad thing about her is the fact that she goes to OU...Those that know I'm from Texas and know I almost went to UT understand my deeply rooted hatred for OU....the only person I can think of that hates them more is THIS gal...But I guess that can be overlooked....just because of the gal in question....
I would post some Africa pics to get you pumped up, but the image thing is down right now....GIVE IT SOME TIME THO
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